Two week ago, I posted the first part of a “serial story”,
in which I’ll be posting – every other Monday – the six parts in this story I
wrote about a year and a half ago, but just now got around to fully editing.
Your thoughts, whether you enjoy these or no, are most welcome!
You can find part one here, and part two is below (of
course).
(As with the last one, today’s story has some potentially
dark themes, and some violence, but the first one is the worst, in that
regard.)
Eyes, Part Two
I brush my tangled hair out of my eyes and peer out
the alleyway. A jeep trundles past, the men standing in the back swing their
flashlights across the street. With a muttered curse I duck back behind the
dumpster and hold my breath as one of the lights sweeps down the alley. They
don’t stop, thank goodness, and the light vanishes.
Seven years. They’ve been looking for me long enough
that I’m changed. I’m not a little girl anymore. Of course, they still call me
one. I clutch the frayed hem of my dress as I stand. It’s way too small for me,
the skirt ends halfway up my thigh and it’s too tight. Besides, the thing is
more holes than anything else. I need to find a department store with a
dumpster.
“Hey you,” someone whispers behind me.
I spin around, pulling out the jagged piece of scrap
metal I like to use as a knife. Not that I really need a weapon. However, stab
wounds are easier to explain then piles of clothing, for the police.
Disappearances help them find me.
The speaker is an old man, with hardly any hair left,
and the fringe of it he does have is white. His hands and face are wrinkled,
but the way he holds himself upright proves he’s not as old as he looks.
“What do you want?” I ask.
He smiles, and it reminds me of grandpa. “Nothing,
nothing. Just wondering why you’re hiding from those men.”
“None of your business,” I mutter, turning away.
“And if you’re the one they’re looking for?” He steps
closer, scuffed-up boots crunching on old glass.
“Then you’d better run.”
The man frowns. I smirk and close my eyes. The sounds
of the city grow dim and faraway, as if they’re not really there. “This man
isn’t real,” I whisper, and I hear a faint scream. When I open my eyes his
clothes flutter to the ground. A knife drops with them, clattering onto the
pavement. I wince. Of course he had a weapon. He’d be a fool not to have one.
“Sorry,” I whisper. I pick up his clothes, stuff them
in the dumpster, and dash out of the alley. The streetlights flicker and dance
on the sidewalk as I cross the street and plunge into another narrow street
between two apartment complexes. Most of the doors have a sign that say ‘beware
of dog’, and all of them have one that quite rudely says ‘no soliciting’. Some
of the windows are boarded up, and there’s still glass on the pavement from when
they got busted open. From the inside or outside, sometimes both. A feral cat
spits and hisses as I pass its garbage can, its mangy fur gathering into clumps
that stand straight up.
I hiss right back at it, and it dives into its can,
growling. As I cross streets and slink between alleys the city becomes less
apartments and more rundown shops. The buildings are all locked up tight, but I
find a department store with a big dumpster in the back. About time, I think, opening the lid. Most of them have these
dumped every day, as if they know I’m coming and don’t want to have their
refuse. But this one is full of junk: papers and leftovers from employees’
lunches, shredded documents, lightbulbs and hangers and tags and, best of all,
clothing.
Ruined stuff, clothing with defects, returned items
with rips in them. Men’s, women’s, even some children’s stuff. I clamber up and
settle down on top of the pile, rummaging through it for anything that might
fit. I find a pair of socks without holes – pure gold, these – and replace them
with my own tattered pair with the heels missing. There aren’t any shoes, but
mine are still a size too big, from the last time I found a dumpster with
clothes in it.
There’s a pair of women’s jeans, but they’re ten sizes
too big, and I toss them away. Shirts and pants and skirts and a few dresses,
all too big or small. I mutter to myself and glance up at the moon. Close to
midnight.
At last I find a dress – a little worse for wear, with
one of the short sleeves missing and a tear in the back – that is a close
enough fit. I pull my own ragged one off and slip the other one over my head.
It’s still a little big, the knee-length skirt reach halfway down my calves and
the neckline is ridiculously low on me, but I pull the neck back and keep it in
place by tightening a belt around my waist.
Not very fashionable, but good enough. I grab a winter
coat from the dumpster – it’s missing most of the stuffing – and slip away. A
few other homeless people slip through the alley, each one eying me and my new
outfit before slipping past into the darkness. One man leers at me. I feel heat
creeping up my neck – the stupid neckline is still lower than anyone in their
right mind wears.
I find a deserted alley crammed between a post office
and an abandoned library and climb into one of the empty garbage cans. It
smells of dead fish and cat, but it’s as safe as I’ll find. I pull the coat
over me as a blanket. Gripping my piece of scrap metal, I fall into a fitful
sleep.
When I wake it’s still close to midnight. As usual,
time didn’t move. Yet, I’m still perfectly rested, and I climb out of the
garbage can. I still don’t know why, but I can sleep forever and it’s still the
same time I went to bed. But I don’t complain, everyone else has to sleep while
I get a head start in running from them.
A jeep rolls by the alleyway and one of the lights
strikes me. The light blinds me for a moment as the jeep squeals to a stop and
someone shouts. Great. I spin and run, blinking rapidly to get rid of the
afterimage. My new dress catches on something and I have to rip the one good
sleeve to get away. One of the soldiers blows a whistle and another one shouts.
I duck down another alley and slip between two doorways, a crevice in the wall.
It’s a maze, here in the lower city, and they’ll never find me.
Two men rush past me, waving flashlights and gripping
automatic rifles. Those make me shiver. Can I stop a bullet quick enough? Or a
tranquilizer? Those might move faster. And with the silencers, I might never
even hear it coming.
The thought ripples through my mind in a second, and
is gone. My heart pounds, I’m sure they’ll hear it if they stop and listen. It
can’t really be just me. The feet march through my ears again, the blood
pounding like an army. I wait for a count of thirty before slipping out of the
crevice and heading away from the soldiers.
“Halt!”
I curse myself and turn down an alleyway. Should have
waited for the third one. It’s always the third one. He blows his whistle. A
bright light shines down the alley ahead of me and I duck down another one. The
windows in the buildings are dark despite the noise, no one wants to know
what’s going on when men shout and whistles blow. Anyone who peeks their head
out might get arrested.
No escape here. So I jump, grab a fire-escape ladder.
The metal screeches at me and pierces the darkness. Stupid noise. Shouts come
from below as I rush up the steps. A weight shakes the ladder as I reach the
first landing. Then I squeeze my eyes shut.
Everything goes silent.
Black.
Wondrous.
They can’t get me, now. I’m safe with my eyes closed.
I bite my lower lip and decide.
“The ladder doesn’t exist,” I whisper. Then I open my
eyes. Below, the ladder vanishes. A man shouts and crashes back to the ground.
I smile and turn away. Steps lead to the next landing. And the next.
And the
next.
I reach the last one and look up. There, six feet
away, is the roof. My freedom. Rough bricks meet my fingertips, scrape my skin.
No awful smells up here, it’s almost… fresh. Well, except for me. I reek from that
garbage can. And the one before it.
My fingers find holds and I climb. Using the
windowsill, I heave myself up and over the last bit. Then I tumble onto the
flat roof of the apartment building and roll over on my back. The winter coat
is warm despite lacking its stuffing, surrounds me in blessed warmth. My knees
quake under the thin dress.
Need to find a better one. Maybe even steal one out of
a store. After all, I can close my eyes and sneak right in. No one will ever
know.
Light.
So blinding I can’t even close my eyes. It blinds me
and tears spill over my eyelids. Then I squeeze my eyes shut. Still bright. So
much light. Too much.
“The light doesn’t exist,” I whisper.
My eyelids look red, with the light shining on them.
It didn’t vanish.
The light didn’t go away.
I open my eyes, wince at the harsh light. Someone
shouts and rough hands heave me up. My heart pounds and I scream. The sound
thunders through my ears and I cut it off. Can’t breathe. Can’t… I can’t… At
last, the light moves away, passes by me. I can see again, see through the
darkness of the rooftop.
The hands holding me whirl me around and something
dark – as dark as the blackness behind my eyes – presses against my face. I
shout, resist, scream. Close my eyes.
But they don’t.
My eyes won’t close. They won’t… pain. I cry out and
collapse onto the rough cement of the roof. So much pain.
“Relax,” a voice says. Distant, high-pitched. “Fight
it, and you will be hurt. Relax, and we can help you. Can we help you?”
Something pricks my arm. A needle. My hand goes numb,
then my arm. Fingers twitch uselessly. I still can’t breathe. And the pain. It
courses down my spine. But then it, too, vanishes in the numbness.
I think I go unconscious. It’s hard to tell, my eyes
are still open. But I can’t move, can’t speak, can’t feel. Nothing. No movement
and no freedom. The sky above me shifts and swirls.
Sight.
I can move again. A little. Something binds my hands
together, but my fingers move. They twitch against soft.
Me.
That’s me. I twitch my fingers again. They feel
something soft, but I feel them twitch. I frown, bite my lower lip. I’m not
soft.
I try to blink.
Pain.
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